I had to vent this somewhere, so I have selected my blog. I applied to the Rhode Island School of Design for early action, I find out my admission decision the last week of January… And RISD is the only thing on my mind since January 4th (which is when they began review of applicants). I am going absolutely insane. I do not know what I am going to do if I am not accepted to RISD, I’ve applied to a few other schools and I know I will succeed wherever I go but, RISD is my dream school – it is a paradigm of an art school I want to attend.

I mean I didn’t even put the RISD seal on my senior ad because I didn’t want it to jinx me. And whenever someone says “You’ll have no problem getting in” or “You’ll get accepted” I cringe… and then knock on wood. RISD is between everyone of my thoughts. I wouldn’t be surprised if all my friends are getting annoyed at my word vomit about RISD. “Did you know RISD is a sister school with Brown?” – “Did you know Urban Outfitters has gone to their portfolio day?” – “When your a senior you get to do this senior exhibit blah blah blah”. It’s kind of out of control. Just a little… Okay. Deep breath? No no no no. I should have spent more time on my drawings, I should have taken more art classes, I should have spent every minute of my summer on my portfolio…

Okay, I need to stop. I need to breath. I need to live? So for now I will try to think about RISD every other thought, and then every other thought from that thought… but what if the thoughts between those are about RISD.. and it never ends? What if RISD looks up my online reference … reads this… and thinks I am completely out of my mind? Yes, RISD admission directors – I am obsessed with your school in an unhealthy manner. And yes I am making a complete fool out of myself if you actually read this.. and yes I should have put a copyright link to your website for using your seal.

Okay, this needs to end. I have deadlines to make and Mid-terms to study for. So RISD I must think about something else – if that’s even possible?