I got rejected from RISD. And I actually am surprised that I am perfectly fine with the decision. The admission process is to fit you to the right school and if you don’t fit you don’t get accepted basically. I don’t think I would have been happy in Rhode Island anyway. Plus all the other art schools I have applied to (that have given me a admission decision) have given me $8,000-$24,000 scholarships per year. So I am pretty pleased with that. I am not sure where I am going yet.. but, I am going to go visit my top four choices over spring break around March 29th. Mass Art, Pratt, U Arts and SCAD are the schools. I think I’ll be happy at any of those schools. We shall see how it all pans out.

I am not going to let one decision stop me. Maybe I’ll even transfer there or go to graduate school there. I feel like I was more caught up on the name of RISD then the actual school. Which is just really silly.

Anyway I’ve been really stressed out with school stuff lately, so I am going to go try get ahead on that. The picture above is on a staircase that was about 50 feet above the ground. My friend Jessie Moreno took these when I was 16. I forgot about them – even though the quality is horrible! Oh well.

xoxo

I was researching about RISD dorms, meal plans and stuff today. I don’t know why I am researching about it, I mean I don’t even get my admission decision for another week. I am really nervous about finding out if I get in or not. I feel as if I am more then adequate to attend RISD and handle their intense program. I just feel so frustrated because it’s like how am I supposed to express who I am as a person and an artist in three drawings, an essay, and my portfolio? It just seems impossible.

So I found myself looking through all this information about RISD for the past month more than ever – rereading every article, googling every single thing and question I have about the school. Reading reviews, reading forums and posts about other people who applied and why they got in or did not.

As much as I want to go to RISD I find myself upset when I read/look at anything to do with RISD. This is because I find RISD to be my absolute dream school. Everything about it draws me in (besides the price, hahah – can you say student loan?). I just feel like I didn’t think my application through enough.

I mean there is nothing I can do about it now. So I am just going to have to deal with the results no matter what. After I get this decision I suppose I will start looking up the other 9 schools I applied to and start researching which one fits me the second best compared to RISD.

Well, keep your fingers crossed for me.

xoxo

This is a sketch I did in an hour with color pencil accents and stuff. It doesn’t really have good technique to it. But, for some reason this sketch means a lot to me. To me despite the fact that the people don’t have faces/facial expressions I feel like the body language between them is very significant. Which is very surprising because of the simplicity of the picture. This might represent a lot of different things to people but to me it represents the struggle to completely trust and give yourself to one person. It shows the emotions of letting someone care for you and protect you – something that I am not used to, something that I am afraid of. Okay, well anyway – I’ll let the art speak for it’s self.

I am planning on having the cover printed on some sort of white or off-white matte material and the parallelograms will be embossed and de bossed randomly. The gold and grey/silver with have a shine coat added them. I like them a lot, kind of sucks that it’s better then my 2010 theme – my own senior yearbook! Oh well, I guess it’s my parting gift to the juniors. Haha. I am going to change the opening, because I don’t like it that much. The rest is pretty much done.

I had to vent this somewhere, so I have selected my blog. I applied to the Rhode Island School of Design for early action, I find out my admission decision the last week of January… And RISD is the only thing on my mind since January 4th (which is when they began review of applicants). I am going absolutely insane. I do not know what I am going to do if I am not accepted to RISD, I’ve applied to a few other schools and I know I will succeed wherever I go but, RISD is my dream school – it is a paradigm of an art school I want to attend.

I mean I didn’t even put the RISD seal on my senior ad because I didn’t want it to jinx me. And whenever someone says “You’ll have no problem getting in” or “You’ll get accepted” I cringe… and then knock on wood. RISD is between everyone of my thoughts. I wouldn’t be surprised if all my friends are getting annoyed at my word vomit about RISD. “Did you know RISD is a sister school with Brown?” – “Did you know Urban Outfitters has gone to their portfolio day?” – “When your a senior you get to do this senior exhibit blah blah blah”. It’s kind of out of control. Just a little… Okay. Deep breath? No no no no. I should have spent more time on my drawings, I should have taken more art classes, I should have spent every minute of my summer on my portfolio…

Okay, I need to stop. I need to breath. I need to live? So for now I will try to think about RISD every other thought, and then every other thought from that thought… but what if the thoughts between those are about RISD.. and it never ends? What if RISD looks up my online reference … reads this… and thinks I am completely out of my mind? Yes, RISD admission directors – I am obsessed with your school in an unhealthy manner. And yes I am making a complete fool out of myself if you actually read this.. and yes I should have put a copyright link to your website for using your seal.

Okay, this needs to end. I have deadlines to make and Mid-terms to study for. So RISD I must think about something else – if that’s even possible?

For Christmas I got a beautiful Tablet from my parents. The small Intuos 4! To test it out I edited this picture of my cousin Emily that I took last summer.

Hey everyone! I am Candace and this is my new website. I can’t wait to start blogging and posting my artistic creations! Hope you like the website.